Doubts
We are buying a house. A townhouse. It lies behind Costco and a close by homeless encampment was moved a couple of months ago. That is probably the reason why we can afford it. This house is a practical choice and the opposite of what I had envisioned ever buying. It is also a light filled open layout with a great office as addition. It is close to everything, a calm street and I am hoping my kids hop on their bikes and find all the neighborhood kids to play with. Owning a house seems to be the only way to get out of being constantly at the landlord's mercy. We moved too many times in the last years and our current landlords announced that they will retire in their house soon. We felt an urge to either take action or leave the area and start somewhere else once again. This whole purchasing process is neither relieving nor do I feel exhilarated or happy. I could see how the chaotic tariff policies drove up the interest rates of our mortgage right in front of my eyes! I feel worn out and doubtful, also about my life's choices. Paying an enormous amount of rent or pouring our money disguised as interest rate into the greedy mouth of a bank doesn't allow much breathing room. It all sucks. I never thought much about making lots of money, I always had enough even when I had very little. Striving for thriving and developing traits like intuition, perception, softness and fluidity were always in the forefront of my life. Staying soft in a world of mortgage pressure is radical, feeling my core through the layers of doubts and binaries is an embodied form of resistance. It also supports the clarity when it is time to engage a family of muscles to harness momentum collaboratively, assemble and move to a different place. My life will change, is changing already. I am hesitant and feel resistance. The disorientation that accompanies the induration of too many tissues is present and I know that I cannot sense where to go if I don't allow the direction to reveal itself. My bones need space to speak the move.
Despite my inner turmoil, I am joyful to be traveling soon and to invite you to my offerings and collaborations in the next couple of months. I hope to see some of you in California in just a couple of weeks! There is still space in my CI workshop "Radical Softness" in Nevada City, CA and you can book Craniosacral sessions in Albany here.
April 2025
April 25 - April 27
We will be experiencing the body as a vessel of experimental inquiry and somatic communicator - oscillating between cerebral musings, body poetry and wild physicality in solo, duet, trio and ensemble practice. Expanding our availability in a dance.
Carmen Serber
May 2025
May 5 - May 8
Craniosacral sessions in Albany, please book through Felek Acupuncture's booking site.
May 5 - May 26
I am excited to offer this series to the Bellingham community as a collaboration.These 4 classes will be held in the supporting atmosphere of a beginner's mind. Each facilitator will bring their unique style, understanding, research and experimentation skills into the space. You will get a palette of different tastes and spices of the form.
Carmen Serber
May 23
Dojo salon #2 curated by Soleil Chapelle and Carmen Serber
7pm at the dojo
All things experimental, arty, cerebral and somatic. Diverse and interdisciplinary. A space for the individual, the experimental and the collective. Sharing confidence and the vulnerable, being witnessed and cared for by the community.
More info coming soon!
Performers: Reve Shannon (spoken word), Patrycja Humienik with Soleil Chapelle (poetry and dance), Bonnie Smerdon + collaborators (dance and sculpture)
June 2025
June 5 - June 8
Nuria Bowart invited Jen Hong and myself to teach at the June Jam in Vermont. I am looking forward to be visiting the Field Center for the first time. Come and join me!
Carmen Serber
August 2025
August 16 and 17
CI Workshop in Leavenworth, WA
more info soon
September 2025
September 12 - September 14
After the summer break ~ Falling into Fall Jam. Sabine Parzer from Austria will be teaching a day long workshop on Friday.
Carmen Serber